Wellness and Wildflowers

Awkward Positivity of a Jelly Minded Gal

Somebody’s, somebody…spreading the seeds of love….

We all need somebody right? Self love is important but its so nice to have that person that helps us. the ride or die, if you will. They help us through the good, the bad and the ugly.

I’m very blessed to have that person in my life. He’s got my back 100% of the time. He helps me wade through all the BS in my own jelly mind… by the way, My mind is Jelly… maybe, I should explain?

Jelly mind…. gooey, yes. squishy, yes. wiggly, yes. But, its also just mushy and floppy and sometimes forgetful, things bounce off of it and I don’t remember, things I really should and sometimes, things get wedged into the middle of it’s jelliness and it stays put, these are usually the things I should forget and want to forget…but that’s how jelly mind works. Kinda works and kinda doesn’t.

So, the said person, I was talking about. Well, he’s wonderful. He’s my rock and he understands the storm that goes on in my mind daily (hello ADHD, you are a pain sometimes, love ya) He is my somebody!!!

Thankfully, I like to think, that I’m also his somebody. I try to be at least . But, he seems to have most of his crap together and he doesn’t seem to need me in the same way, mentally that I need him. So, me being the caring and giving person I am, I have other people in my life that I like to think, needs me and I’m their somebody.

Even, when I’m not feeling my best and I feel like I’m a pile of mush. I always feel I need to be somebody’s, somebody. I feel that it gives me purpose and pushes me out of the slump I am in, sometimes, it works and some of the times, it back fires on me… but I know in my heart. I also want to be somebody to somebody and I always want to be somebody’s, somebody.

I had a friend mention to me how he was amazed by an action of mine, not long ago. I was struggling with my mental health, and was on a slippery slope to the dark hold of depression. If you have ever been there, you know the feeling….dread…complete dread. I had pulled my last bit of energy with no desire to do anything, together, to go to the store with my friend…we walked around I picked up a few things and then it happened… I turned the corner and there was a sweet friend I usually love to see but when you are on the struggling bus yourself, sometimes, you just don’t want to see that friend. She had a look of worry on her face and I knew something was wrong. We talked, I put on a smile, she told me her issues and concerns and we hugged and she left. The other friend that was there smiled. I had asked why he was smiling and he said, you were so sweet to her. I said yeah, she’s my friend. He said yeah but you aren’t doing well, you have all the things going on yourself and you were worried about her instead. I said yes, she “needed that”, I hugged her, listened to her and helped her (or so I hope)…. she needed that…sometimes we have to put away or own stuff to help others. I’m blessed and lucky enough to have friends and family to help me through all my mess…..not everyone is so lucky. She needed “somebody“

At times, people need others help without the ability to ask for it…pride and shame is a weird thing. So, if you see someone struggling and you can help.Be that somebody, to that person. We all need one another…

BE SOMEBODY’S, SOMEBODY and you will be SOMEBODY, to SOMEBODY!!!

Life, Love and Light, babes,

-Patsy Ann (the jelly minded gal)