Jelly Mind Entry: 41 years old and not a clue (am I alone)

Man, I’m on the struggle bus! Is anyone else? This day and age, things seem to be, well harder. Things that seem they should be easy and come naturally, aren’t for me. And, it feels like I might be failing at life!

In life…. you are supposed to find your purpose and do the thing, right? But, what if, you don’t know what your purpose is, do all people have a purpose? If, they do, can they have big ones and small ones?…

I’m struggling with where my purpose in life might be and what path I should take. Being a lady of many snazzy labels, such as ADHD and Bipolar, I go through many thoughts and things I want to do. And, it seems to change a lot, nearly every day, lol.

My brain has recently got the best of me and as I age, and my kid grows up, and I have my self in therapy, I’m going into panic mode on what to do with the next chapter of my life. And, in doing so, I applied to 10 different jobs all across the board and I even signed up for college classes! I got 6 interviews, and I was accepted to start school in January. But…But now….I’m freaking out, lol WHAT PATH DO I CHOOSE!!!!

It’s almost a feeling of not knowing what you want to do but wanting to do it all! So, if you ever feel like you are struggling and you aren’t sure of where you belong, you are not alone. I’m here, just trying to make it through life!

We are never really alone or lost. Sometimes, we just have to try different paths and see where it takes us. Here’s to all of you out there fighting to find your path, you are not alone!!!

Love and Light,

From the jelly minded gal

-Patsy Ann

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